Mindless Talk

Hello, So this week has been a little wild... from things being meh, to going great, to going ugh, then great and now downhill again.

I keep thinking of how some people just seem to be lucky. I am not saying this in a mean way, but some people seem oblivious to how the world works or are just super optimistic as if things could not possibly go wrong. In the meantime, I try to think things through and plan ahead and worry all the time and yet, somehow, I always get the short end of the stick. If I were to be as optimistic as them, I'd fail. I have to be realist to survive. At this point, I almost believe in a God who is like "oh yeah, no, you? You cannot do that, sorry. That's for some lucky people or something."

I know this is all vague nonsense because what I am basing these words on is pretty personal and I don't want to get into detail here. I am mentally fine, but it's just something that I keep noticing all the time.

Hi! I am still alive, but today I had such a fucked up day, even if nothing happened. My brain was like "let's see what depression is like again" and I napped for like 3 hours and I even went on a short walk and still felt like shit. I am just gonna go to sleep soon tho. Short work week ahead, but it's gonna be a super stressful one I think... Anyway, I need to find a way to enjoy life... it's all kinda been very meh recently.

Hi! I am feeling too lazy to post anything right now. I really need to find a way to just sit down for one hour and focus on something after work. Currently, it's just listening to the same 5 songs in French, chatting with some people and watching youtube. Please someone come over and clean the kitchen too. Thx.

Hello,

This is my latest thought again... Anyway, I am now obsessed with this French song now

I just saw this idea on a blog on the discovery page and I am trying to set up something similar. Unfortunately, I cannot find the blog anymore. I looked through all of the latest posts on the discovery page and through my browser history...