Nothing to do on the internet
Hello,
I am writing this because I am bored. I have nothing to do on the internet anymore. Let's start from the beginning.
I remember trying to quit facebook since America was grabbed by the p***y for the first time. I would post things, interact with people, comment, and be part of groups. At some point, it started causing me anxiety, especially since I was blending my internet life with my real life in Germany and my previous life in Romania. Every time I tried to stop using Facebook, I would have no idea what to do with myself, so I would just come back. I was addicted. I would even take pictures of something and think about how I would post it and what I would say about it.
As time went on, I got more and more bored of it, and replaced my facebook addiction with.... tiktok! I think that was in 2022. Tiktok was great. It felt fresh. Most of it was "amateur content" from people like me who just wanted to share whatever they cared about. Eventually, it became addictive, turned into something like reddit where people started just arguing with each other, and then the influencers and media got on it. I was still stuck on it for a while, but after many failed attempts, I managed to quit it and just use Youtube.
Before I get to Youtube, let's talk about reddit. I was never really a big redditor. I did create an account at some point, but I ended up arguing with people, so I wouldn't use it that often. When I also realized that some of the stuff was written by AI, I kinda just stopped bothering. I only end up on reddit when I google something. Also, I deleted my reddit account last week because I couldn't figure out how to sign out of it on my phone's browser LOL. Yes, that is how much I cared about having an account there.
Now, Youtube was and still is my biggest addiction. However, one day, I learned that if you turned off the watch history, you would not get any recommendations. You'd be stuck with your subscriptions. It felt so difficult to turn it off. I was worried. What if someone sends me a link or I click on a video and then it disappears forever? I will never be able to find it.
I decided that if I stumble upon a video worth remembering, I will like it or add it to a playlist, or, hear me out, look into the browser history. The latter, unfortunately, is not that reliable because websites nowadays only load some parts of the website and the browser does not always realize you switched to another video, so even if you have watched 3 videos, you will only find the last one in your history.
Anyway, I have been watch-history-free for a long time now. It has probably been at least a year; and it is... frustrating. I still catch myself scrolling through shorts until they stop and youtube tells me to "turn on watch history for better recommendations!", but I choose not to do it. I scroll through my pictures, banking apps, emails, conversations with people...
So, no reddit, not always in the mood for youtube, no tiktok, no facebook, no... anything and yet I am still addicted to scrolling. I want to use my laptop to be on the internet and just waste my time, but there is nothing to do. The only thing that feels nice is browsing through all the random blogs on bearblog's discover page, but sometimes I want something else. No idea what. Today, I got so bored that I... started reading the book I have been reading on and off.
The days when I could spend my time on the internet all day and have lots of fun are gone. Now it's all the same and kind of boring and impersonal. Just like when your hobby starts to suck once it becomes your job, so did the internet, or content, start to suck once it became everyone's job. There are some "content creators" that I swear are only making videos to sell you something. You can't tell me you genuinely wanted to go on a walk on a cold rainy day and just happened to also be sponsored by an umbrella or a shoe brand. It was probably the other way around. You made the video because of the sponsorship.
While typing all of this, I realized that probably podcasts are the only things that still feel human and personal. They may have ads, but they are usually unrelated to the topic. I also wonder if I am just feeling a little lonely because I lost the illusion of community by no longer actively partaking in social media. I actually have another post in mind that I want to write that will touch on the subject of loneliness and lack of community, but in combination with something else. If you don't wanna miss out on that, don't forget to like, subscribe, click on the bell, subscribe to my onlyfans, hit me up on reddit, twitch, cornhub or shoot me a message on Google+... lol remember Google+? I'm happy at least that thing died.
Anyway, have a good day, whoever you are! You deserve it.